Last night when I posted the blog, I was feeling good, in a positive state of mind. A few hours later things had changed. When I got into bed I felt wide awake. Not in a, I have more energy way, that stressed, I can't stop thinking, kind of awake. I was lying there with so many thought rushing around but sort of felt blank at the same time. Suddenly I burst into tears. Then I thought I was an idiot so I started thinking really negatively about myself. Once I had eventually got over that - through the kindness of Robbie putting up with my crying AGAIN and saying such nice things - I fell asleep. But, I had night made after night mare. I had to wake Robbie up because I felt so weird. So, I had an awful nights sleep. My legs still hurt from the squats and I just felt stressy. Once I'd had my lemon water though I felt better.
I got to the fridge and I was running so low on food. I couldn't really follow any of the recipes due to the lack of ingredients I had to make stuff up and because of this I ended up making juices that just separated into weird layers. Which made me realise how experimental making juice is. I didn't think juicing would be anything like cooking but every ingredient counts. I knew in dressings and baking that lemon juice acted like an emulsifier but I didn't realise it would be so important in the juice! The ones that lacked lemon were okay though. Then, I ended up putting coconut water in both sets which is really annoying as it's pretty expensive. I managed to make a much nicer version of the shamrock smoothie today which I was really pleased with. It was almost completely smooth and didn't taste really sour, so I enjoyed it. It was much better than my last attempt. With the juicing I have managed to use up all the food in my fridge. I didn't really ever manage to do that before. Things would go bad or I couldn't think of anything in time but with the juice it's like making a liquid salad. Which is great because it means no food or money goes to waste. It's such a shame that I'm not at my own house otherwise I would definitely be making a compost heap.
I found it quite odd that once I'd done all my juicing, I had no meals left to prepare. They were all ready for the day ahead. That's so much time saved. I felt so strange. But this meant I had more time so, I decided to watch, Fat Sick and Nearly Dead. A documentary focusing of how doing a reboot can completely change your life - Joe Cross being the main example in the film. I can't believe what a difference the reboot made. Not just the losing weight but how the people changed for the better. It was as though a miracle had happened. But, it hadn't. All that happened was that they ate how we should eat. So I'm very excited about how much healthier and happier I will be. It just seems such a shame that natural healthy food, that should be free from the earth, is so expensive and then the processed food that we have to create is cheap. It makes no sense.
Even though I had some very positive parts of my day I did face some annoying stuff. My skin had cleared up from all the red sore spots but today I've come up with tonnes of tiny little spots on my: face, chest and shoulders. This is probably the toxins beings released but it still sucks. After lunch, around mid afternoon maybe I felt weak and tried and a headache almost appeared but that drifted quickly. I felt so exhausted I had to lie down. I did feel better later on. I am thankful that I haven't suffered as badly as some people I read about on the community forum on the reboot website. So that's a positive. Something that's really getting on my nerves now is my obsession with food. I keep thinking about it. I want to look at recipes all the time. Not for junk food though, what I'll eat after this. I keep trying to convert these nagging things that annoy me into positives. So, my positive reason for being obsessed with food is that it means I am becoming more aware of how important my diet is and that it is worth devoting time to.
So, I'm approaching the end of Day 5. Feeling so hungry and quite nervous about the 10 days of JUST JUICE ahead of me. Particularly the daily intake of 16oz of coconut water. I just don't think I can do that or afford it. We will see.
I'll be back on Day 6!
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